Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
today i am grateful for a few things that i get grumpy about, but are my reality and in fact really good things:
- a job for which i am well paid with health insurance and retirement.
- my body. it gets the job done.
- my brain. i often wish it could do more but relatively speaking it's quite awesome.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
- a good haircut
- used books
- a clean house
- being too busy working and living to even slightly entertain the thought of protesting for or against something strongly (protesting makes me tense)
- picking at a pomegranate
- raking leaves
- sweet emails from new and old friends
- planning a thanksgiving meal (i like the planning better than the fixing; possibly better than the eating)
- luca's thundershirt
Friday, November 18, 2011
i have many jobs:
- practitioner of the gratitude arts
- corgi petter
- forest afficionado
- messy painter
- thrift store wanderer
- napper exraordinaire
(ok, i feel better now. just needed to say it.)
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
it's a stretch when i write that i am grateful for practice. let me just say that i am grateful that i am getting better at recognizing opportunities for practice before situations become so complex, overwhelming or dangerous. this week i am practicing:
- staying grounded while being thrown under the bus
- by someone i trust
- defending myself without fighting
- thinking before speaking
- not hating myself even though i gained two pounds after a week of conscious eating, yoga, walks and pilates
- feeling alone without feeling unworthy
- choosing love over fear
- gratitude during a less-than-happy week
Monday, November 14, 2011
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
the sea faded by afternoon sun.
turquoise stones sold roadside by an ancient yokut.
blue skies tinted green from exhaust or old film.
the tile mosaic in the mission fountain.
a girl's hair on melrose.
from the airplane, the backyard pools look like teal polkadots.
the color of california.
the color of home.
grateful for bella's 52 photos project.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
so i had one of those great weekends where everything seemed possible. everyone's energies were in sync and the mood was clear and bright. i had space and time for yoga, art, cooking, photography, cuddly naps and talks. it was effortless. i am so grateful for these gifts.
i painted frog girl on the cover of my 2012 planner and in a wildly enthusiastic fit named it 'the year of extraordinary things'. i am so very grateful to mindy; she taught me to paint and gave me the courage that goes with it. the courage to play and make mistakes and try again.
i am also grateful to pixie. in her class about animal spirits at serendipity, i pulled the frog card. at first i was slightly disappointed in my selection. i was hoping for something a bit more majestic, like bear or mountain lion or wise like owl. maybe something beautiful like peacock. nope. frog.
but the more i learned about frog spirit, i realized she is exactly the totem i need at this time in my life. she is about metamorphosis and transformation and cleansing and healing. she is about joy, creativity, abundance, voice. frog clears negativity from space, internal and external. frog is sounding quite nice now, isn't she?
so on this monday morning, i'm pulling on my imaginary frog hat to see if i can hold on to the optimism throughout the day once i leave the beauty of my little magical pond.
happy monday friends.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
always grateful for the color and experiences of autumn. this morning in my backyard the sun rose across the wee forest illuminating hundreds of tiny falling leaves of red, yellow, orange and green. there was a soft scent of woodsmoke and the sound of birdsong and distant church bells.
it. was. awesome.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Friday, November 4, 2011
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
i am fascinated by how people express their faith. while some organized religions scare the bejesus out of me, i find comfort in most avenues of worship and enlightenment.
regular churchgoing is not for me and i live in a town where christianity has its own "special" flavor that turns me off, but i grew up believing in jesus and heaven and there is a part of me that still does. yesterday, i was attending a memorial in an episcopalian chapel and surprised myself by still being able to recite psalm 23 by heart.
now i believe in and have faith in other things as well. it's pretty much a multi-denominational party on my path. i love the teachings of the buddha, native american spiritual practices and the yoga sutras. but there will always be a little girl inside of me that sees herself as a fluffy lamb at the feet of a loving jesus.
i am grateful that i have faith in love and tomorrow and forgiveness and growth.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
tomorrow is all souls day. and today is the first day of my month of gratitude. i like to remember those souls who walked a bit with me on this path with gratitude for what they taught me.
grandpa w showed me the joys of rollerskating and a good baseball game and to always have a little mystery about you. (later in life i found out he was briefly married to a german circus performer before my grandma. cool.)
john b was the boy we all wanted to grow up and marry. he was devastatingly handsome even in the first grade (think donny osmond). he was funny and friendly. he blew his brains out with a rifle when we were nineteen. i have a vivid memory of side-by-side i-can-swing-higher contests on the playground. to this day when i swing, he swings.
leesha b just got her drivers license when she died in a head-on collision on a windy desert road at twilight. no matter how great it's going, it really can all be gone in a second. cherish it.
mark ran up all eight floors of the padre hotel and hurled his body off of an open balcony. everybody has demons, some big and some small. it's our job to work them out.
cece (not her real name) was a foster child on my caseload. she had stage four bone cancer. cece taught me that even though your tumors are growing so fast others can hear your bones breaking from the inside out and even though you know you are dying before you even get to live your life, having your toenails painted with glitter and talking about leo dicaprio can bring a smile to a girl's face.
there are others. too many others. i may return to this page and add on as i think about them throughout the week and remember the lessons they lived.