tiny saviors

things that save my soul wee bits at a time:

• lavender kombucha mixed with ginger kombucha
• washi tape
• in the current deluge of euphemism and metaphor:  simple truths spoken in simple language
• regular old facebook status updates instead of more things to push and sell and p.r. 
• the fortune cookie that says, "the current year will bring you much happiness."
• the job offer that i'm still afraid is too good to be true.
• being paid what i am worth.
• writing this post instead of "tiny things i hate"
• mumford and sons and emmylou harris together (thanks michelle, i would have never known)
• speaking of michelle:  this
• predawn walks in the rain with luca dog
• and my all-time favorite:  falling asleep to the sound of my favorite person in the world reading aloud

jumpstart

autumn is my new year.  i've said it before and each year it becomes more clear.  it's in the air dancing with the tiny golden leaves, crisp breezes and soft scent of campfire:  change.  it is the time for renewal and transition and jumpstarting.  do you feel this way too?

last night i was lucky to be a part of my friend and squam cabinmate jess greene's jumpstart creativity tour.  (side note:  i swear wayonda 2009 was the magic cabin.)  i am so in awe of jess and have been endlessly inspired by her ideas and journey.  she's travelling around the country, stopping at different cities to get people making art.  (what?!  i know!)  there are a few east coast cities left on the tour.  go if you get the opportunity.  you will be happy you did.

over the last few months, i've been pulling together materials for my myers-briggs for artists program and i am endlessly fascinated with the concept of intuition.  my intuition (in this context defined as my worldview and what i know and trust to be true) was smothered in my prior job.  since leaving, i'm exploring letting my intuition run wild, seeing what unfolds, playing with the ideas and imaginations that come up, living my intuition.  it just feels good.  and true.

i've also been exploring my apache heritage, a long-ignored but essential part of who i am.  this little piece is my touchstone honoring the connections between intuition, creating, culture and the wild spirits of my ancestors.

some sunday grace

from my yogi tea.

in the last days of summer

there are these things:

golden light.  wind chime tinkles.

grapes and figs and the last of the summer berries.

windows wide open.

a confetti of pansies.

prayer wheel crafting in progress.

acorn gathering.

pumpkin smoothies*.

moments that whisper, come on in beautiful.

*for the pumpkin smoothie

blend together:

• one ripe frozen banana
• one-half can organic pumpkin
• one single serving container of organic greek yogurt (plain)
• two spoons chia seeds, plus more for garnish
• two spoons of chopped pumpkin seeds, plus more for garnish
• one spoon sweetener of your choice (i've been trying out coconut palm sugar, tastes good and is way lower on the glycemic index than sugar, but the price is high)
• almond or coconut milk to liquefy to your liking
• any combination of autumn spices:  cinnamon, ginger, cardamom, nutmeg, etc.

happy equinox.  here's to bright beginnings.

face north with gratitude

dear beautiful,

you tried your best.

it didn't work out the way you planned.

now you feel sad.

i understand. really, darling, i do, and i'm sorry if you're hurting.

but let me clue you in on my little secret. it might masquerade as failure or rejection. you might judge yourself because it didn't work out.  you might worry what others will think.

but sometimes the only way the universe knows how to communicate that it's in the highest good for all beings if you face north instead of south is to block your path.

don't take it personally, my dear.

bless the redirect.

thank the universe.

face north with gratitude.

(sweet note from the universe received today via the daily flame.)

above the clouds

see those blue mountains in the distance?  those are the peaks of otter.  we're going to climb the one on the right.  sharp top mountain.

when you stop to take photographs or just to be present in the magnificence of this space (or it you need to rest and your camera gives you the perfect excuse so you don't look like a total wuss), the hike to the summit takes a little over two hours. 

in the space of two hours, we walked from the last weekend of summer into autumn.

have you noticed that trails always start out looking like this?  flat, wide, totally doable?  they get you into the wilderness and then they bring out the steep rocky inclines.

for a girl like me, who doesn't really like athletics, hiking is the perfect activity.  you can't really quit.  you can turn around and go back but that still requires some effort.  i find that once i've committed to some distance, i almost always choose to get the reward (the summit.)

hello tiny delicate flowers.

and weird gigantic orange mushrooms.

my tiny buddha.

my other tiny buddha.

a heart-shaped stone.  always a good sign you are on the right path.

they are almost always ahead of me a bit.  this one always (always!) keeps an eye on me to make sure i'm coming along.

halfway there.

and we have arrived at autumn.

imagine what all of those gorgeous trees will look like a few weeks from now when virginia explodes with fall color!  shall we return?

absolutely!

sacred

hello sweet souls.  i'm visiting with liz and kelly today over on chickadee road.  we're talking all things sacred and i made a little list to share.
 

randomness

lately, there has been

• rainbow hoop taping
• hooping (attempts)
• super spicy tofu pad thai
• blackberry smoothies
• falling leaves (!)
• windows open
• home yoga practice (saving money)
• trying to get used to kindle (it's not working out very well)

what's new with you?

scarcity, abundance and quelling the voracious wants

this week many of my friends will be heading up to the woods of new hampshire to attend squam art workshops.  since first attending this magical gathering in 2009, i have made an annual trip to one of the retreats in new hampshire or the outer banks.  (see some of the magic here, here, here and here.)  i can just feel their anticipation of the hugs, laughter, long talks on the dock, art, ice cream, yoga, music and love. 

i so want to be there.  i even cried a little last night thinking about all that i will miss.

but i made a choice a few months ago that in order to leave my job, some things i enjoy would need to be cut postponed.  (interestingly, the decision to leave my job and my paycheck was based on the fact that it just cost too much, and i consider it to be my first and best mindful decision about value.)  the list of go-withouts is long.  until this last week, it hasn't been that bad and i've considered being frugal graceful with my money a fun challenge, totally doable and even rewarding. 

two things changed that:  the nearness of squam and the freaking deluge of fall catalogs arriving daily in my postbox.  autumn is my favorite time to shop.  i love boots and sweaters and coats and luscious items for my winter nest.  i am in serious want mode.  acquiring these things is evidence that i am not poor.  but this year i will go without.  and i have fallen so far down the scarcity rabbit hole that i feel impoverished, lacking, less than. 

that could not be farther from the truth.  i know that i have an abundant life, that i am rich in spirit and love and beauty.  i know that i don't have to worry about my bills being paid or a roof over my head.  i know i am spoiled.  and i feel entitled to being spoiled because i have known many times in my life when i had to scrounge for seventy-five cents in order to ride the bus to work (sometimes i had to walk) and when i had to feed myself and my child three-for-a-dollar-bean-and-potato burritos for days on end and when i had to carry my sleeping girl and my bookbags a mile from the bus stop to our home in a not-so-safe neighborhood on cold dark nights.  i get poverty.

and i also get that i remain in a poverty mindset.  that just using words like spoiled and entitled indicate a belief that if i am not that (spoiled and entitled), then i am by default impoverished.

i'm working on it, trying to find the middle ground, the balance, the equanimity between scarcity and abundance.  i've increased my awareness of how i waste money on things i don't need and really don't want.  i want it to not be about money, but money and having and acquisition keep coming up as the central themes. 

so today i am working on quelling the voracious wants.  i do this by sitting in the gorgeous sunshine, taking slow deep breaths of precious clean air, feeding myself with truly nourishing foods, reading one of the books in our ridiculously abundant library (of many unread books), using what i already have, loving my family, wishing my friends a truly beautiful time at squam and recognizing how truly lucky i am in this life.

this prosperity series on intuitive bridge is also nourishing me.

i'm interested in how you are graceful with your money and any advice you have on quelling the wants and living an abundant life.

the light in you

honored.

dear universe

thank you.

thank you.

for yoga, happy children, kombucha straight from the keg, music, laughter, balance, nourishment, rainbows, dirty feet, plants that heal, kale massagers, free spirits, flower necklaces, storytellers, community, thunderstorms, singing, chanting, napping, smiling, love, prayer, fields and streams, drummers, firemakers, vegan tacos, cicadas, artists, blue moons, body painters and frolickers of all kind.

{all of this and more at floyd yoga festival.}