curious girl crush

corita rose, you are killing me with the tattoo birds...



the milagros corazon...

and the brilliant hues. seriously, I'm done for.

it's me again

a lovely little consequence of the unravelling course is that it refueled my love of doing fun self-portraits. this month's theme for the self-portrait challenge is "introduce yourself". I was so inspired by all the fantastic submissions, but especially thrilled with this one and this one. I couldn't get the wordle clouds to translate onto the image, so I used words around the edge of the image as a frame. it was fun.

rachel at metaphorical magpie has a hilarious meme up. take your first name and put the word "unfortunately" before it, then google and see what you come up with. rachel's had me laughing out loud. mine, however, were quite gloomy:

unfortunately, lisa fell off the wagon and began using drugs.

unfortunately, lisa doesn't have a good side yet.

unfortunately, lisa never made it that far.

unfortunately, lisa is unmanned and not on mars. (I ♥ this one!)

unfortunately, lisa was brain dead in cleveland.

and so on...you get the picture. as a group, it appears that lisa's are unfortunate indeed. try it yourself, I'd like to see your results.

this is the end of nablopomo for february. we made it! it's getting easier to post daily, but there are days when I feel I just throw something up here and that's not the kind of relationship I want to have with you. as always, the challenge kept me super aware of things that may morph into something to post, and I like that. kendalee and christy posted every single day too and I really liked knowing I was going to be able to visit them for daily beauty and inspiration. congratulations!

happy, happy weekend friends!

friday is beautiful

one of the secrets of a happy life is continuous small treats.

-iris murdoch

winterness

the winter sun has such an unusual quality of softness and brilliance. unhindered by naked trees, it reaches subjects that may otherwise prefer to be sheltered. gentle exposure, I love that.

the mirror ball beckons

I was waiting for the perfect sunny + snowy day to shoot my mirror ball self-portrait for winter. but yesterday's crispness paired with a little assignment as part of the e-course unravelling allowed me to wait no more. here it is with the mirror ball selfies from autumn and summer. can't wait for spring.

I am thoroughly enjoying the unravelling course, hosted by the lovely susannah. I recommend it to everyone interested in a little self-discovery with pen and camera. visit susannah's lovely blog and click on the unravelling button to open the door...

the value of softness

a few months ago, I vowed to lighten up in a number of aspects of my life (body, mind and art). not surprisingly, my photos are showing the most dramatic results in this endeavor. not that this progress came without resistance. you see my friends, "big, bold and vibrant" are my thing. as well as "shoot what you like". which in my case is big, bold and vibrant.

I was challenged to see the value of soft light, the play of shadow and the subtle incandescence the two of them create during their dance. but I made a point of looking for it, seeking it out, capturing it, and eventually loving it.

progress.

now let's get on with the body and mind part...

introducing

tiny b and the rainbow warriors.

who doesn't want this band of merry men behind them? especially on a monday.

recovery mode randomness

so on friday when I wrote that I was "remarkably better", I understand now that I really meant "capable of moving my limbs". this morning I finally feel that the last of whatever-it-was is gone. I'm back to normal after a yesterday of existing between worlds.

I read in the warmth of the sun until I realized that even godden's words were a bit much. I switched for this month's issue of living etc. and numbly gazed at the pretty pictures. I spilled my tea on the pile of pages I had pulled out for my inspiration binder.

a trip to the market was necessary on my own as ken is at blackfriars theatre for the weekend. everything there--the people, the muzak, the smells--assaulted my senses. but I was able to grab some pretzels and mexican coca-cola (for some reason, this is all I want to eat) without incident. it's nice to have someone around when you're sick to do these things for you.

you probably already know this, but I just discovered you can watch movies on your computer from netflix if you are a member. I watched shakespeare retold: macbeth with james mcavoy all snuggled up in bed with my laptop. I was a bit unnerved to see that both james and garbage men figure prominently in this film (re: my dream on friday) and am trying to figure out if I might have read something about this before to influence my dream or am just a wee bit freakishly psychic. this movie is not vegan friendly.

today, I need to play catch-up with grading papers and cleaning house. I hope you all have something more lovely than that going on.

casting call

sometimes I miss being on stage. I miss the thrill of being involved with a creative project that has so much energy and passion surrounding it; yet doesn't last long enough for those involved to get bored. I love being another person and living her life in short brilliant bursts.

curious: let's pretend you have all the acting talent in the world and there is no such thing as stage fright...what role do you covet above all others?

for me, it has to be katherine in the taming of the shrew. I know, I know...let's forget the misogynist overtones of the work and focus on what an awesome character she is: feisty, rebellious, independent, quick-tempered, yet capable of vulnerability and surrender. I long to retort the words, "best beware my sting."

who would I cast as petruccio? no mystery there.

slowly rising to the surface

for the past 24 hours or so, I've been zonked, laid out flat by some sort of flu-like malady. it came on fast and hard and is finally making its way on to some other unfortunate soul. I got up around five a.m., just long enough for a breakfast consisting of two sips of joe and a bombpop and to call in sick. currently, I am feeling remarkably better after twenty hours of deep sleep and flu-induced dreams.

dreams are the upside of being sick (well, that and the guaranteed 2-lbs weight loss). james mcavoy was here just like last time. although this time he was the garbage man at my childhood home and I was a child. he was friendly, waived at me and said "hello" with his scottish accent. I waved back as I made my way to school. I met my friend at the corner who happened to be a little orange fuzzy puppet (I've seen this recently, but I can't place it). james was very happy that I had a little friend, gave me a little wink and jumped on the back of the garbage truck as it pulled away.

ok, back to the real world (you must excuse me, I'm still moving in slow motion). I just received the goop newsletter. do you read goop? I love it. the current post is about being spent, a feeling I can so relate to. I've got something going on...I'm not sure if it's circadian dysrhythmia or stress, but it has been persistent for the last few months. I've been very low energy and have been out of work several days sick. all I know is it can't go on like this. I want my old self back.

I am now retreating to the sofa to bury myself under two quilts. here's hoping for more dreams.

update: my little orange fuzzy friend has been identified! he is "hunger" from the weight watchers commercial. hmm...that lends a whole new meaning to my dream...

to be that teacher

I was raised by a teacher. I like to teach. although it's not my profession, I have dabbled here and there with presentations and visits to classrooms to talk about my job. this year, I feel lucky to have an entire college class for one semester. in the evening we are cozied up in a tiny classroom in the attic of a century-old building. although our subject is grim (child abuse), the young spirits of my students are uplifting. they are interested, curious, intelligent...every teacher's dream class.

remember that teacher in college who introduced you to a world or a concept that was previously unknown to you? remember how your eyes and mind widened with the thrill of exploration? when your brain and heart hungered for more, more, more and that teacher gently led you to make your own discoveries, form your own opinions and feel like an expert for the first time in your life? that's the teacher I want to be.

what I want

what I really, really want.

simon too.

dear mrs. mother nature

you are so very kind to us here in virginia. you graciously lay out four beautiful and distinct seasons for us to experience and enjoy. may I be so bold to say that I want just one more day of white fluffy snow at which to gaze? I know the whole global warming thing is messing with your winter mojo, leaving us with very few days of snow. but if you would be so kind to squeeze out just one more day, I would be eternally grateful.

xo, lisa

p.s. if would be extra awesome if this snow storm could fall on a work day, just enough to hinder driving, but not enough to cut the power. too much?

a sky like this

makes a curious girl forget her chores and spend an afternoon daydreaming.

some random thoughts fresh from the imagination factory:

• I have always wanted a white pygmy goat with a set of curlicue horns, a long goatee and a name like pierre.
• speaking of names, sometimes I want to change mine: sofia, bronwyn, piper are some of my current loves. I wonder would I be a different person with a different name?
• I fantasize quite often about the ability to time travel. I would love to visit queen elizabeth's court, experience india in the age of akbar, 1920's kenya...then I remember the whole no plumbing and women's rights thing and I'm happy I'm here now.

what kinds of whimsical things do you conjure up in a daydream?

finding that place

you know, that place. the place where you fit in. the place where you are no longer an outsider. the place where everyone knows your name.

I am still searching for that place. nearly a decade ago, I left my hometown. since then I have felt an outsider, a foreigner, an oddity to those around me. I don't speak their language and they don't speak mine. so much energy is spent trying to figure out what is meant, what is being said, what are they thinking. I long for familiarity, comfort, natural camaraderie, shared interests, like minds. I long for kindred spirits. to belong.

I often find it here, in the land of blog and, of course, in my own home with my amazing husband. but there is something about fitting in with a group of peers who just get you that I haven't experienced in real life in a while. that's what I want.

hello cupcakes

normally, I am quite casual about st. valentine's day. I am a girl who likes to share love and hearts and hugs and kisses (albeit quietly, I am not a demonstrative affection-giver) and look at chubby naked babies with bows and arrows every day. I never quite understood why we need a holiday (much less one that falls only once per year) to prompt us to show the love to our friends, lovers and family.

yesterday I was visiting a local elementary school and was waiting in the hallway. a class was having their v-day party and I wanted to go back in time to that excitement of giving, receiving, sorting and reading sweet nothings from friends, classmates and maybe a crush. the girls were giddy. the boys, (acting) aloof. they still make the big envelopes out of construction paper and tape them to the desk, then circulate in a mad rush of 9-year-old silliness with their little deliveries. love that.

love you all, my valentines.

p.s. I made the valentine above for my main man (#42 on the list done). inside it says, "you are yummy".

and other stuff I won't post.

charmed

I want to believe in fantastical things such as luck, fate, destiny. but most of the time I think it really is all about hard work and focus. I have seen the power of karma and positive energy in my life. yet I experience such a challenge reconciling the practical, down-to-earth part of me with the mystical hippie that rears her head now and again.

now that I think about it, to be both of these people makes me the luckiest of all.

p.s. I love how tiny b looks so regal in this photo. it's not easy to look regal while perched on a bottle of grey goose.

lucky friday, lovelies.

rescue me

in case you haven't noticed, I can be a wee bit intense.

most days, I like myself this way. I'm quick, decisive and focused.

but I carry around a great deal of anxiety on a regular basis. when exhaustion or multiple crises hit, I can be seen as frustrated, demanding, not very easy to please. that's really not who I want to be. so I do my best to quell the storm (and it really has been described as a storm) at the first signs of the winds picking up. here are some things I do:

• rescue remedy really works. it sits on my desk ready to help.
• yogi tea (after work only, it's pretty potent on me)
• yoga and breathing exercises. sometimes I close my office door and just spend five minutes doing some deep breathing.
• color! or make something. I have tiny little collages around my office that I make on the spur of the moment (see yesterday's 'be funky').
• getting lost in a good story. I've not done well here the last few months. I really struggled with loving frank (it really only made me not love frank) and revolutionary road. last night I picked up the age of shiva and was so pleased with the lushness of the words.
• if all else fails: a day off, some margaritas and a long chat with a friend far away.

I'm curious, what things to you do to rescue yourself from anxiety, worry, sadness, etc.?

funkmeister

can a funky girl continue to be funky in her forties? I guess the same pressures to conform and be traditional hit in different forms within each decade we live. it just seems more of a struggle lately to be quirky, fun and dance to a different beat.

nevertheless, a funky girl needs a funky dog. check. I found be funky via em and had some funky fun applying their magic image funkifiers to some photos.

love a funky dog!

take a bath

not my bath. yet. (living, etc.)

yesterday, beautiful kendalee prompted us to think about daily rituals and everyday moments that bring us comfort, pleasure and inspiration. I love reading the comments to see how others find a wee bit of escape during the busy day. it also made me focus and appreciate all the little things I do every day that bring me certain joy...coffee, blogging, photographing, dog kisses, sitting outside at sunset, that moment when I turn out the light and melt into the bed...

my most persistent ritual has to be a bath. I get the water super hot and pour or drop in something lovely smelling. I can lie there for hours. my muscles unwind, my thoughts drift, a corgi face hangs over the edge and those eyes quiz, "why is it that you like it so much in there?"